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Disarm Me (WIth Your Loneliness)

2010-06-06T00:58:00.001+07:00

" Tell me how much you miss my warmth
" Tell me how much my kiss can change your world
" Tell me how much it hurts to be alone
Lie to me that you love me with all your heart... "

hiatus

2010-03-24T22:38:00.002+07:00

yang punya blog ini lagi tergila-gila dengan yang namanya:

- Chor Lau Heung 1995 (gue ngerasa dulu karakter Chu Liu Xiang ini bener2 keren n ganteng bangettttt) dan baru ngeh Adam Cheng maen 3kali sebagai CLX di TV seriesnya (1975, 1985 & 1995)

- terdampar di bbs Yang Lijing aka Cynthia Khan, tapi ga ngerti apa yang diomongin, dkarenakan isi percakapan 100% dalam bahasa mandarin (-__-)

- pengen nonton My Name Is Khan tuk yang kedua kalinya, cuma kapan yah?! secara yang mau diajak lebih mikir harga diri jatuh klo nonton film indihe haxhaxhax

- ngumpulin film-nya SRK & KAJOL (the best Jodi ever for me lah) dari Bazigaar, Karan Arjun, Dilwale Dulhaniya Le Jayenge, Kuch Kuch Hota Hai sampai Kabhi Kushi Kabhie Gam dan nunggu DVD My Name is Khan keluar, kurang waras apa coba gue ini OMG XD~

- ngedownload 20 episode The King of Snooker cuma gara2 ada Adam Cheng, dan balik lagi ini gara2 gw nge-hunting ngiter2 Ambas, Mangga Dua (Glodoknya belum) buat nyari Chor Lau Heung 95, jadi sbnrnya ada apa sih dengan opah berumur 63tahun ini (T^T)
intinya stelah tanya n ubek2 forum2 yg berbau kental cerita wuxia-nya, emang ga nemu yg versi 95 ini, ada yg nawarin malah yang tahun 79 & 84, buseeettt

- yang pastinya gw akhrnya beli Chor Lau Heung 2001 & 2007
wlopun banyak baca komen CLH 2007 dibintangi Ken Zhu ini adalah versi CLH terjelek dari 6 CLH TV Series, kasian kamu Ken Ken :D
dan knapa pula gw jadi ngumpulin serial bikinan Gu Long ini (>_<)
so dear friends, please tell me if you find some links for these below :)
The Midnight Orchid, Chu Liuxiang - The Finale, Chu Liuxiang The Sequel - Ximen Wuhen, Legen of the Liquid Sword, The New Adventures of Chor Lau Heung and The Legend of Xiangshuai

intinya yah saya akan hiatus lagi dari blog ini dan lebih aktif di blog satunya http://projectkyo.blogspot.com dan di Pupe buat promo dagangan gw (dagang gorengan maksudnya) :D

don't ask me what it means

2009-11-18T21:43:00.003+07:00

so many windows I’m standing naked there inside
all eyes can see me and there’s no way to pull the blinds
I can’t deny what I’ve confessed I cannot run from how I feel
so be the shelter in my strife come remind me I’m alive

You stop the bleeding and kiss away the tears that fall
light up the shadows and help me climb over my walls
and I’m not sure how much you know
how much your light has helped me grow
and you’re the only one

turn off the light bring on the night
I need to be unseen
I can’t escape the wind biting its way in
through all of my windows

it’s never easy I know, with all that I demand
it’s not a given all the burden you withstand
but I’m so grateful that you do and maybe this is overdue
I know it’s true, my Love

don’t trust your eyes, don’t read my plight and don’t ask me what it means
my blessing and my bane it calls me out by name
carving out new windows

so many windows
they leave me naked here inside
all eyes can see me
through my windows

Amanda Somerville - Windows

a cup of tea and a smile

2009-10-31T08:30:00.004+07:00

saturday 07.30am I was arrived
and drink the tea using this cat face mug on 08:24am

maybe he didn't surprised with my advent in breeze as he said
he didn't mad at me *thanks*
he need me.. he need me I said secretly mumbled
(gazing around on that place)
and I left him with that black green menthol beside with his last words
'be careful'
while I stared on his tired face

"wailing for your sorrow
is only my way to comfort you"

you're now 26..

2009-09-25T01:00:00.002+07:00

I hope...
this year, you didn't celebrate your birthday with solitude..

as your request; a blueberry cheese cake (I found this cake at Garden PVJ)
but.. errr.. why you already sleep (-___-)

*masih mengira-ngira nih mango gratin mengandung babi ga yawh

getting older

2009-08-17T11:45:00.004+07:00

Loneliness ...
that takes away happiness & turns away into sadness
it turns sweetness into bitterness
Loneliness is like sickness that can be cured by someone's togetherness
during loneliness we can not see someone's kindness but only cruelness

..................................

I dunno why, even my friends around me at my special day, but I feel solitude spreading here and I already miss him *sigh*

this man has married

2009-06-26T12:45:00.004+07:00

just post some pic at my facebook about Eica Toppinen from Apocalyptica, here the details

he married with finnish actress who first achieved fame for her role in the Finnish Soap Opera Sydän toivoa täynnä, Kirsi Ylijoki in 1997 and have two sons; Eelis (born 1999) and Ilmari (born 2002). I just put some add behind the name, the etymologi and mythologi of their sons' name..

♪(*^ ・^)ノ⌒☆ EELIS
(stem Eeli-). a male given name, a variant of Elias via Swedish Elis. Finnish form of ELIJAH.
from the Hebrew name ('Eliyyahu) meaning "my God is YAHWEH'. Elijah was a Hebrew prophet of the 9th century BC, during the reign of King Ahab and his Queen, Jezebel. The two Books of Kings in the Old Testament tell of his exploits, which culminate with him being carried to heaven in a chariot of fire.

Because Elijah was a popularfigure in medieval tales, and because his name was borne by a few early saints (who are usually known by the Greek or Latin form Elias), the name came into general use during the Middle Ages. In medieval England it was usualy speled Elis. it died out there by the 16th century, butit was revived by the Puritans in the form Elijah after the Protestant Reformation.

♪(*^ ・^)ノ⌒☆ ILMARI
gender: masculine, usage: Finnish Mythology, Short form of ILMARINEN
derived from Finnish ilma "air". Ilmarinen is an immortal smith in Finnish mythology, the creator of the sky and the magic mill known as the Sampo. He is one of the main characters in the Finnish epic the 'Kalevala'

May gifts

2009-05-05T10:22:00.006+07:00

.........................
if you playing one of Gamefish's game application called Pet Society, so you will understand what I posted below

after a few many 'This Week Special' items, why they released almost every week now
my pet will give random and friends only some free stuffs from this social game (^^)
here they are :

Questions :
ok, based on Isal's question, 'what the connection between Mother's Day and Mexico stuffs (>_<)
Answers :
please, please, please, comment here, gue tau kalian mao nyampah kan XD

first and second
Cinco de Mayo is this Tuesday! So get into the Mexican spirit.
*send some letter to playfish* maybe next one of Indonesian traditional dress will input at their database hehe :p
third, fourth and fifth
errr~ maybe the unlucky goes to pet which will accept 'send some love' box ;p

when your pet open this box, the flying-huge-pink-heart-shaped will goes to your pet
and the result ... -__-
yep, little useless, your pet only laughing happy (>_<)
girs must be like it, a Pink Carnation Bouquet to you.
is there someone need this 'White Water Cooler' for your kitchen?!

and this is my present I gave to my pet last night

well, that's my short explanation, is it really short?! I think No :p
I'll update again who's those lucky pets will get the presents from me
Happy Socialize all (^3^)/

that memories?!

2009-05-02T23:19:00.007+07:00

finally I realize dear (￣▽￣)ノ
sebelumnya juga sempet baca sih, but unsure was it really for me （￣へ￣）

--☆--:*:--☆:*:--☆--:*:--☆--

" Memories... The voice that's been silent all these years thinks deep thoughts but, I thought I destroyed every memory we had. They were lost long ago, but they're all coming back. Your endless nights of pleasure, as my body laid there, motionless and powerless. The endless crying buried deep within me, you never heard...
Don't do it again, please, don't do it again, I'll be good, you're hurting me.. You left me with a Demon, ripping, tearing, and striping, my heart apart.. The memories keep holding on, they are so fucking strong, and for the darkest nights I rest, I pray for a brighter day..."

--☆--:*:--☆:*:--☆--:*:--☆--

~from someone yang selalu merasa dirinya disakitin terus sama yang punya blog ini (-__-)
Σ(ﾟ∀´(┗┐ヽ(･∀･ )ﾉ *kick*

the next steps :
♥ people need money?! ♥
♥♥ maybe no need for food suplement ♥♥
♥♥♥ any sleeping pils which can not cause side effects ♥♥♥
♥♥♥♥ pic note, yes recently addicted with Blythe *saving* ♥♥♥♥

don't panic!!!

2009-04-29T18:51:00.003+07:00

Error : 619
it written 'a connection to the remote computer couldn't be established, so the port used for this connection was closed.'

what is it?!
I think my lappie get something error problem which some part missing or intuitively I deleted o.O

1x24 hours wait for the next progress they said *grrr*
yes absolutey telkomsel get some problem with their network selection service.
can you imagine now I get online with GPRS speed than HSDPA/UMTS speed I used before (T^T)

dead.hearted

2009-03-14T13:06:00.006+07:00

life is simple
but people make it difficult

can you hear me?

I made my self feel pain not so easy to vanished
I made my self thinking that someone precious more than this self
and then forget that I'm exist
I made my self to be scandalist protagonist not a victim
I made my self people bitten at me than had pity
I made my self worst than lowest I think

but like Redeemer song recently I listened
there's no time for despair

let me be your lover than your partner
come to me when you feel those distress
let me be your strong sunflower than that beautiful red roses
not so easy to find at flower shop right

but I just have a quarter of your soul
seems not enough and felt jeaolus

hey
I'm still here, writing ...

11.02.2008.21.00

2009-02-12T14:39:00.005+07:00

kpitingpanggang: I want to hold you to the sun. <-mau ngebunuh?!

*lol* yah engga' lah dear
mademoizell3: burn alive together.
mademoizell3: jadinya kpitinggosong, bukan kpitingpanggang donk.

dan sang kpitinggosong itupun lanjut maen warcraft -__-;

my summer wine

2009-02-09T09:51:00.009+07:00

I walked in town on silver spurs that jingled too
a song that I had only sang to just a few
she saw my silver spurs and said let pass some time
and I will give to you summer wine

Strawberries cherries and an angel's kiss in spring
my summer wine is really made from all these things
take off your silver spurs and help me pass the time
and I will give to you summer wine

my eyes grew heavy and my lips they could not speak
I tried to get up but I couldn't find my feet
she reassured me with an unfamiliar line
and then she gave to me more summer wine

Strawberries cherries and an angel's kiss in spring
my summer wine is really made from all these things
take off your silver spurs and help me pass the time
and I will give to you summer wine

when I woke up the sun was shining in my eyes
my silver spurs were gone my head felt twice its size
she took my silver spurs a dollar and a dime
and left me cravin' for more summer wine

~ Summer Wine by Ville Valo feat Natalia Avelon ~

but, I remember that Strawberry White Chocolate and a hug in that dawn （＾＿－）☆wink
ありがとう for that moment . . .

enchanted by E.A

2009-01-27T10:47:00.002+07:00

I want to hold you to the sun
I want to be your faithful one
I want to show you all the beauty you don't even know you hold
I'm hurting you for your own good
I'd die for you - you know I would
I'd give up all my wealth to buy you back the soul you never sold

I want to heal you pretty sweet
I'll throw rose petals at your feet
I'll spend eternity comparing all my poetry to yours
I want to see love through your eyes you'll never have to compromise
I'd give up all my fame to fight your demons and your bloody wars

I want to mix our blood and put it in the ground so you can never leave
I want to earn your trust your faith your heart you'll never be deceived

.....
actually this is a song from Emilie Autumn called Liar x_x

the smile of loyalty

2008-09-07T14:47:00.007+07:00

mademoizell3 wrote this journal at this recipe list blog after unexpected dead with my baby and hearing Icarus Walk by Epik High -_-

if she loves Pomegranate [ザクロ] and then I love this Insect [蟲] song
may the happiness always be with you after that November :p
+~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~+

蟲 - mushi -
by. Dir en grey

打ち明けられない誰も信じられない誰も彼も
I can't open myself up to anyone I can't believe in anyone at all
ほら全て見えない差し込んだ光が消えて今にも枯れる
and I can't see anything the light that shines is disappearing, soon it will be gone
打ち明けられない事は私の弱さ私の過去
unable to open myself up this is my weakness, my past
得るモノもあるけれどきっと手に握る優しさが消えてゆくと
I can get what I want, yet if I do, the kindness I'm holding onto will slip away
ありふれた答えは生きる事白死に戻して生まれ変わる
the typical answer is when you die, you'll be reborn, come back again

心が閉ざして今にも壊れてゆく
my heart is shuttered, soon it will break apart
涙を殺して笑う日々よ
stifling my tears, I laugh day after day
心が示した信じる意味の無さを
my heart has shown me that believing is nothing
私を殺した偽善人よ
those hypocrites killed me

心が閉ざして今にも崩れ落ちる
my heart is shuttered, soon it will crumble away
涙を殺して叫ぶ日々よ
stifling my tears, I scream day after day
心が残した信じる意味の強さを
my heart has left me with a belief in strength
私を殺した私心
my own heart killed me

maafkan saya ^^

2008-09-01T11:34:00.004+07:00

writing with gratitude ^^

ok, this story happened yesterday at public transportation, in front of me
if you faced a 10years brat, okay he's not brat anymore I think just badly off at that time
didalam kopaja P20 jurusan lebak bulus - senen (maka sang kenek pun teriak senen, senen). terjadilah keisengan sekumpulan bocah bocah yang menyahut dengan teriakan 'senen, senen' pula XD

apesnya, pas lampu merah dimana seorang penumpang, how if we called him 'an old man' in this story. I'm so sure this boy didn't have any bad intention to this 'an old man' just slipped some words on his mouth, child always like that right nakalnya. si old man ini naik dan menghampiri langsung sang bocah, langsung bag big bug 'tadi kamu ngatain saya yah?!'.

si bocah ini ga bisa jawab krna bingung, yah emang tadi itu dia ga niat ngatain. he just answered no, I'm not n then silence ketakutan. tapi tetep aja si kakek tua bangka ini yang merasa dia itu harus dihormati sebagai layaknya orang2 tua kebanyakan malah ngotot, keluarlah kata2 yang ga pantes diucapin
'goblok, orang tua kamu ngajarin nya kya' gini, klo kamu anak saya sudah saya pukul kamu'
my thought : oh jadi anak2nya dirumah sering digebukin kali yah >_<

masih aja tuh kakek ngomong, tolol, bego lah dan how damn WTF that fuckin' oldman (yang merasa dia itu harus dihormati sebagai layaknya orang2 tua kebanyakan) hit that boy's head >_<> in case even your parents had a mistake or wrong we should respect them right?!

I'm sick with this old man beside me
I think thanks God, my grandfather never hit his children n his grandchildren (inget banget pas dulu dulu banget dia ngajar ngaji n anak2 murid nya itu bandel2, tapi ga sampe segitunya)
and my father too, he never hit his children
my thought : mungkin kakek ini sering mukulin anak2nya, makanya ringan tangan begitu

and thanks to God too, my grandfather and my father too never (even they're mad with some brats) called their mother a whore, slut, a mother fuckin' bitch
coba deh kakek itu mikir klo anak ato cucu2nya berbuat kesalahan yg dia sendiri ga sadar akan kesalahannya terus dikata2in nyokapnya itu cabo', wanita malam, pelacur ato perek sekalian... you never thinking like that right an old man who thinking you're a wise an good old man

yes that brat is wrong, but you're wrong too. The education you give just made him thinking someone guilty should be punish by the hit n omongan2 laen yang ga patut diucapkan.
I thinking about the Battle Royal movie at that time, if that happened real and here, it's so scary, a condition where old people and young people didn't believe each other >_<

my story going so long I think :p
entering this Ramadhan month, with honest asking mohon dimaafkan kesalahan yang mungkin saya buat dengan tidak sengaja, klo ngga' ibadah yang nanti bakal dilaksanakan bakal terabaikan, ga cari pahala, cari ridhaNya aja XD

Happy fasting ramadhan all :)

One!!

2008-08-20T14:30:00.007+07:00

another translation from Korean group Epik High - ONE
yes. absolutely I love this song..

ONE! [english translation reff not included]
by. EPIK HIGH

Time is tickin'. T-Time is tickin', tickin'.
Time is tickin', T-Time is tickin' away…

I want to see your tears pour out, pour out without reason
No one knows inside your heart, The glass fragments raging a storm

The wounds become a sickness, All doors become a wall
I’ve become an enemy in the mirror, doesn’t it hurt?

[I'll] keep anyone from knowing about you, [I'll] leave the breath to tighten out
I’ll force you to choose the end, (aren’t I bad?)
I’ll take away all reason in this world for you to to stand

Without the choice of the road back, [I guess] you’ll walk to the end
Your breath would probably end before my heart

Wounds… Scars… Tears… Flowing
(When you cry. though you try. say goodbye. the time is tickin')

You are wandering through death, (I’ll save you…)
(When you cry. though you try. say goodbye. the time is tickin')
You are the one.
When you’re walking in shadows
(When I’m panicking in the shadows, my breath does the same)
you are my savior
I’ll reach my hand out to you
(When all the doors in the world close for me, I’ll support you with my hand)
you are the one. you are my savior.

Time is tickin'. T…

Your hand set the world on fire, You closed everyone’s eyes
The suffering that was reflected in your eyes like stars become your city

Are your still dreaming, sleeping? Are you measuring all the tears you’ve shed?
Hope is a paper boat that sinks, isn’t it sad?

Maybe you wake up drenched in sweat at night, Is consciousness crawling on the floor?
Are you thinking it’s the end, are you ok? ’cause I understand

I’m a scar on your broken body
I’ll erase the tears you’ve hidden away in your shattered marriage
I’ll grab your hand With my hand and trust you

Do you have wounds, do you have scars, Are you wandering through shadows?
(Faith, Destiny, Love.)

you're still beautiful to me.

Time is tickin'. T-Time is tickin', tickin'.
Time is tickin', T-Time is tickin' away…

My savior.

ONE!

Happy Birthday

2008-08-17T12:29:00.005+07:00

thanks for all messages and prayer they give to me on my birthday
makasih semuanya and jangan minta traktiran XD
Happy Birthday for my twenty fourth on last August 17th *sigh*

the question is what I've done, the best thing I give to my family, my self my life especially to the GOD, yang berkuasa penuh atas diri kita pada setiap incinya >_<
I'm not a good person, trying every year to be a better, better than before, but I realized it getting worst, dunno ...

these eyes and this soul seems very tired
and I almost give up
she said bagaimanapun juga etika akan menang diatas logika
that's right maybe I don't care about what people mocking
tapi yang terberat adalah pertentangan didalam diri kita sendiri

I'm tired but I'm sure He is more tired than me I can say that just from your face. thanks for your coming even we meet only two hours. a message for you describe by the picture I take

*ups* the S letter hiding behind me XD

~Time is tickin', T-Time is tickin' away…~

another journey

2008-08-06T11:40:00.002+07:00

I really thanks to the God for those two days in Bandung
even my sleep was very terrible, those boys are hell, beside me purred so heavy 'til people outside the room can hear that creepy snored, can you imagine two single bed for five people,and riki sorry if my leg kicked out your head XD

well, second day
I fulfilled my promised to see vietha on the stage again, watched last performance of Shiro Hana, was it really last gigs (?_?)

minna, I shared the pictures on my album photos here:
my Facebook
or you can try
my Multiply

and this picture is my fave (^_^)

thanks buat kpitingpanggang yang udah mau nemenin jalan keluar, walopun pada saat itu mungkin pikiran kamu ada dimana tau, janjian sama tukang pecel itu yah XD

and LOVE said no

2008-07-26T14:27:00.007+07:00

maybe right...
love sometimes make us selfish
possesive
and turn out to freak
thinking, worrying, crying and dying

*catet*
Relationships fail because men still don't understand why a woman can't be more like a man, and women expect their men to behave just like they do

and coba loe berfikir dewasalah
udah dibilang khan klo cowo' itu bego ga bisa fokus ma banyak hal
and sering bilang cape'
itu krna kemampuan otak cowo' ma cewe' beda
cewe' lebih rounded
sedangkan cowo' lebih menusuk/lurus
yang lebih menghabiskan banyak energi
*makasih yah bro*

someone said too:
ibaratnya man like a soap, more you hold so tight, it will sliped away

.............................................
'Hi Miss Alice
still you do not answer'

why he like that song too *huh* XD
may GOD always protect you dear
and of course I'll take care of myself, like you said before :)
~someoneWithThe'W'initial@yourMobile~

love love love

2008-06-20T08:36:00.007+07:00

I found this lyrics kinda interesting ^^;
I never seen this love love love MV (Music Video) before, but now I'm dowloading XD
just have one file when they had performed at ... errr I forgot, but it was a live music performance.

LOVE LOVE LOVE [english translation, reff not included]

By. EPIK HIGH

It's Midnight, your tired drunk voice
2:00 a.m., the abruptly ended phone call

Nobody knows how I feel
I can't stop Love love love
Though it hurts, I keep on repeating
I can't stop Love love love

Have you ever been in love before?
Falling at first sight, like in the movies?
Spent the entire night talking on the phone?
Bragged to the entire world?
Waited in the pouring rain?
Run like crazy to the one you love?
Secretly guarded?
Gone crazy?
Pretended not to see when you really did?

I’m sure you have been in love
Spent all your money on your anniversary
Apologized even when you didn’t do anything wrong
Spent entire days writing love letters

Pushed back promises with your family
Prayed to God for that persons health
Ignored your friends
Missed them
Guarded their leaving figure

Can't stop love
Why? I loved you like crazy
Why? I treated you so well
I gave you everything
You got me going crazy

Why? I loved you with all my life.
I gave you my body and soul
I lost everything for you
How could you?

Have you ever had your heart broken?
Had your makeup wash off in the pouring rain?
Cut your long hair?
Started smoking again?
Avoided areas where they might be?
Wrote letters you know you would never send?
Called them while you were drunk? (Hello?)
Had your lips freeze up

I’m sure you've had a broken heart
Hated them as much as you loved them
Ripped up letters you didn’t read
Deleted the phone number you will never forget
Celebrated anniversaries by yourself
Burned all the photographs
Thought every song about heartbreak in the world was yours

Cry like an idiot
Get drunk again
Hold on to your friend
And curse that person

Time passes
Get drunk again
Grab the phone
Say love!

Nobody knows my heart
In reality, only you don't know
Though it hurts, I keep on repeating
As I live my life, I’m sure I'll see you again

Tarja and Annette

2008-06-18T12:55:00.002+07:00

someone comment like this for the comment, after I watched Nightwish video at LastFM, Nightwish - Amarath mmmhhhh the falling angel again was burned *hey, why not a witch* by those peasant for the main plot of this video, if I'm wrong please correct me XD

We know if WE LOVE TARJA, but since she decided her own why and Nightwish should continue of course and the new vocalist can't fulfill our expectation, what should we gonna do, poor for Annete

Annette Olzon sucks :/ Tarja has much much greater voice than she does, Annette sings like pop-shit :/ And she's so over-confident, she behaves in interviews like she was better than Tarja ://
here for more -> http://www.last.fm/music/Nightwish/+videos/2799268

but speaking of that, of course I love Tarja more than Annette *sorry*

10:40 am

2008-05-06T11:15:00.002+07:00

last message received at 10.40 am

why should me first ...
who always asking 'how are you' ?!

Cosi Fan Tutte! (Women are all like that!)
bu I think Men are the same too >_<

dikala Sabtu itu

2008-05-05T16:42:00.004+07:00

"Sometimes love is stronger than a man's convictions" - Isaac Bashevis

protest sama tukang bingkai, krna aga kurang memuaskan, sebelllll pdahal kan gue dah langganan, masa dia ga tau apa sih yang gue mau (T_T) dan untuk Nina sori yah berhubung ga sempet banget waktunya, ga jadi bikin yang jawa versi pake kemben, jadi jawa keraton mana gini hahaha bocoran cross stitch disebelahnya, yup on process for STARGAZER, dibuat dengan penuh kebencian akhir2 ini, dan sumpah serapah ga jelas *guling-guling gara2 ga bisa makan kambing guling* disertai bekgron suara gamelan jawa pas dengerin lagu SPIRITUARISE (remix by Juno Reactor) by Sugizo

ini kado padahal jadinya biasa aja, tapi kok gue bungkusnya lama banget sih, knapa pula pake warna Murasaki *duh* XD

what a stupid accident (how can it be)
ceritanya begini, pas kami bertiga (ibu2 dan bapak2 yang laen dah duluan masuk) masuk ke pintu masuk dimana yang punya acara resepsi berlangsung, tanpa tanya tanpa mikir dulu kek, isi buku tamu dengan PEDE-nya, temen gue juga dah masukin amplop gitu aja, bahkan kado2 tersebut (hari gini kondangan msh pake kado XD) diberikan secara ikhlas, baru sadar setelah beberapa detik kemudian (jalan kekanan disambut foto2 kedua mempelai), temen gue deh nyeletuk 'ini bener ga sih' kawinannya Nina?!'
gue jawab 'eh'
sejak kapan Nina masuk Islam?! kok penganten perempuannya berjilbab gitu?!
entah guenya yang bego akibat mikir krna ga pake kacamata, memaksakan kalau foto tersebut adalah Nina, dan dalam hati masih mikir ini bener kok tempatnya, mungkin aja dia jd mualaf kemaren *ngaco* (>_<)

nanya deh drpada salah 'mas, mas, ini resepsinya Nina & Rickson bukan yah'
'oh, bukan, mba'
weleh, kok bisa yah, what a shame on me untung gue muka tembok, dan untung juga penjaga buku tamunya yang 'ehem' lumayan cakep bo' (boleh tau nama mas ga' yah?! *ditabok* XD ) nyerahin balik tuh kado kekami, tapi yang ga beruntung temen gue yang satu yang udah dapet cenderamata gara2 udah masukin angpao wakakak XDD 'sabar, sabar yah' *sambil ngelus2 pundaknya dia* ^^

intiya kami masuk keruangan yang salah haha udah gitu sialnya setelah masuk keRuangan yang benar tanpa salaman dulu dengan kedua mempelai, bertegur sapa dengan rekan sekantor yang laen terus hunting makan (tamu kurang ajar), tapiiiiiiiiiiiiiiii apaan nih, piring main coursenya kok jadi tinggal piri ng dessert.
sumpah.. gue inget banget malam itu kita bertiga cuma makan nasi+keripik kentang+asinan (ga nyambung banget sih nih makanan) plus gue yang lagi nyari sisa2 kali aja masih ada udangnya di serpihan2 tinggal bubuknya doang, satenya kenapa keluar belakang (T^T) setelah itu nengok kekanan, kok saladnya gada tinggal panci doang, kearah utara kok buahnya gada juga (benar2 malam yng menyedihkan) padahal niat awal kita datang memang untuk makan, bahkan berpikir yang engga'2 mungkin aja disana ada kambing guling n sederetan dessert yang menggiurkan *hancur berkeping-keping*

pesan dr saya klo mau kya gitu mah datang aga' awal, klo memang ditulis acara jam7 yah datang jam7 jan gan datang jam 1/2 9, telat gara2 harus jemput si Ibu HRD itu (yang pdenya bilang, acaranya jam7 datang telat juga gapapa kok) dan suaminya tercinta yang ga mao modal yah, masa' pas arah pulang gue kira mereka cuma numpang sampe mana terus naek angkot apalah gitu, eh ini kok disuruh belok kiri terus, terus, terus n terus mentok ke Rumahnya 'yehhhh' (ini kok jadi curhat dendam pribadi) XD

for Nina, Happy Wedding Blessed the new life for both of You (kata2nya diambil dr Uga yang ga bisa datang krna dia bilang 'saya ga bisa datang, ada disuatu tempat') lagi kencan luh yah ga sama kenalan diFaceBook (>_<)
dan diriku cuma bisa mengucapkan ini :

ehehehe kata2nya boleh nyontek dari kartu2 ucapan HallMark pas siang sebelumnya gue pergi ke D'Best tuk beli kertas kado, saya pintar saya pintar, padahal disitu ada larangan ditempel
"dilarang, mencatat tulisan2 yang terdapat dikartu ucapan"
kalo menghapal boleh kan mba' =p

apply now !!

2008-04-29T11:09:00.004+07:00

gue lagi ga ada kerjaan, well` ada yang mau diceritakan tapi ga jadi *buntu* udah lupa lagi, cuma uneg2 ga jelas disini >_< PLEASE STOP girls!!

I'm getting sick if you're starting that topic later in front of me, iyah gue jadi muak, apalagi klo dah ngebahas tentang artis2 AV dari weskod (nama rumah produksi tuh pilem bokep buat gay disamarkan hahahax) pake naro tuh file2 di laptop gua pula (tidakkkk, chiaki gue ternoda *hiks*) langsung gue delet tanpa ampun *aga' geram*

WARNING-nya !!!
ga usah kasih gue gambar2 tuh artis2 weskod, langsung gue decline (x3x)

*ga nyadar* dah mau makan siang, saya pesen ayam bakar didepan, enak loh (rekomendasi dari gue) kapan2 gue posting tentang ayam bakar tersebut hahaha

oh yah gambar disamping, bukan salah satu artis weskod itu yang gue lagi bicarain diatas, tapi dia punya nama Seto Kouji, he's so cute but his face so fragile, kurang manly ah *ups* love his lips, may I kiss *lol* yang jadi siapa lupa gue namanya di Kamen Rider KIVA (baru nonton sampai episode 10 sih) ^^
tapi mulai bosen kalau kalian dah mulai mem-pairing-pairing-kan nih cowo' *arggghhh*

makan dulu ah~~~~~~~~~

分島花音 - still doll

2008-04-14T14:04:00.004+07:00

until I write at this blog I'm still not decided to buy her debut single [still doll] on May 28th later
but I'm fall for this girl XD she's only 19 and a celloist (^3^)
and why Mana (ex Malice Mizer and the leader of Moi dix Mois) produced her debut from compose and arrangement the song but the lyrics ofcourse from her own
yesterday I've downloaded her still doll PV (thanks to aqi) ^^
here the screens caps below

and here the lyrics :

Hi Miss Alice.
あなた　硝子の眼で
どんな夢を
見られるの？
魅入られるの？
まだあたし
こころが裂けて
流れ出る
繕った
隙間に刺さる
記憶たち

Still, you do not answer.

(masih belum memutuskan beli atau ngga'nya) kepikiran, mungkin ga yah Mana masukin dia sebagai member Moi dix Mois XDD~

a grateful shit

2008-03-22T15:17:00.005+07:00

the title *maybe* disgusting little but the pic above yes :p

' why they think if they're deserve for that shit '
*yaik*

three victims before got that shit :

- the handsome dude who could make girls swoon (I dont think he's handsome *pheww*)
the popular guys who have it all, even when we're wearing the same uniform, they'll look like a star.
You can even spot them in a crowd of people because they have an aura.
Some guys have that special look. He's a high school senior at Garam High, Lee Sung-min.

- a high school junior at Geosang High, he's not even a celebrity but he's got tree separate fan websites. He's a star basketball player and an ultracool guy *lebay deh*
not only do the girls love him but the guys also think he's the man.
He's a handsome fella with a killer jump shot., Han-geng.

- a punk look-like vocalist who become success and went on a national tour, released too his solo album, what's his name (I'm not a fans of Suju)

and who's the next, here are the candidates :

- his IQ score is equal to his height in terms of cm, many students said that he implanted an ultra dual-core CPU directly into his brain, a school president Choi Si-won.
- Kim hee chul the leader of the school's ultra junior dance group.
- the former high school judo champion, Neul Paran High's star judo player, Kang In

well don't get serious for above I write, that's only just a movie 'Flower Boys' *watch a hour ago* I borrow from someone yesterday and why at my pasokon now there's 2files audio from FT Island, girls what did you ripped yesterday x_x

La Rose de Versailles

2008-03-15T19:09:00.004+07:00

hmmmm is it right if Andre here which Nodame said 'Andre' to Shinichi (watch No Nodame Cantabile Shinshun Special in Europe 2) is "Andre Rieu", the Dutch violinist and conductor, who often dresses up in period costumes. Someone said this at the S orchestra livejournal community, and there still some debated, but a lot of hit back with statements and any ideas if 'Andre', Nodame referring is just only Andre Grandier from Versalles no Bara anime (or manga) by Riyoko Ikeda. however I think Shinichi doesn't suit at all from Andre Grandier image XD but thanks for the info he gave ^^

oh yah speaking of versailles no bara;
based on wikipedia, La Rose de Versailles will be the next movie based on the manga/anime The Rose of Versailles, and will be produced by Toei Animation. The movie is delayed until 2009.

The joy and lighting of the shining youth

2008-03-13T17:33:00.005+07:00

mood : agitated
BM : Rachmaninoff Piano Concerto No. 3 Op. 30, 1st movement

maybe since dat last friday when we went to dat somewhere place, how can I say I'm addicted with doughnuts again, gain some weight but where's the result, I'm still skinny (T^T)

" Alcapone is my best friend
Alpacino is my father
and Almond is my favorite " (^.^)

no no I love kiwi melted inside, triple chocolate with peanut butter, cappuccino taste or orecrown and some of cinnamon powder *I'm not mania*

dance dance petrouchka

2008-03-09T19:16:00.005+07:00

after getting kicked by the puppeteer
he was thrown into a cell... the clown puppet, Petrouchka
fear and anger towards the puppeteer...
blissfully imagining things beyond his reach...
a clown that could never differentiate fantasy from reality...
its pitiful end

after vacation

2008-03-04T17:29:00.006+07:00

yup since there wasnt good posted at here *laugh* the topic now is about my trip last friday nite after we back from our office-hour. The destination is Cibogo-Bogor area (whateverlah I don't know exactly where the place located on map) XD
nooo.. here isn't any topic I'm just posting some pics hehe ^^

tolong itu yang didepan, anda lagi bawa orang, bukan karung2 beras, mana nyetirnya ga enak banget *ups* (>_<)

I'm so sure, tomorrow we'll get some disease called 'wind enter' *lol* just so foolish I forget to brought my sweater here T^T

the fact was ... it's still at 5am, and I dunno why we should get back hurry, I want to jump into that pool, really really -_-

the last but before, ga' dimana dimana tetep aja makannya nasi padang >_<

credit picture: no credit, those are ours, thanks to leaveshelkar, mamy jesse and me, yang pecinta bola ga usah disebutin XD

~sekian~

this is March right ?!

2008-03-01T18:05:00.008+07:00

mood : grateful
music : Acid Black Cherry - sins

semalam dipuncak, apa yang didapat yah?! cuma poto2 doang (gila, nora' banget kami2 ini XD), numpang makan nasi padang n sate kambing n numpang tidur di villa yang sewanya sejuta *damn* coz pagi2 subuh dah balik lage. Satpam kantor bilang pas rombongan kami tiba "kok pada lecek sih"

yaiyalah, ini begadang tidur cuma beberapa jam n belum mandi wakakak x_x
ditambah masuk angin plus migrain, tapi more better setelah makan sambil maen pupe sore ini *dasar*

well~ I changed my theme today (^^), black black I want to sing;

" Black Cherry ちょうだい "
" Black Cherry もっと… "

it juz seducing with the lyrics means like this "Black Cherry... make love to me, give yourself to me, Leave your seed inside of me!" *lol* *enough*

... waht do ya think?? I used this bootskins above this time, is it kinda so reddish Diva version XDD

Feb 29th

2008-02-29T15:24:00.002+07:00

I'm no longer used this white 'studs' template. tomorrow I'll change with new layout I've made before and now it fixed 100% *senangnya* setelah 5hari berturut - turut memikirkan apa yang mau dibuat dan utak atik sana sini, bahkan harus hunting kupu-kupu dimana-mana, bukan kupu2 malam loh XD~
and the result *tadaaa* see tomorrow ok (^^)

a grateful chance to posted at this end day of this february month, just once in every four years. I just imagine how was some people celebrate their birthday which they was born on February 29th (^^;) ???
*continuing playing at my poupeegirl*
*big grins*

endlessly

2008-02-18T14:52:00.003+07:00

Hopelessly
I'll love you endlessly
Hopelessly I'll give you everything
but I won't give you up
I won't let you down
I won't leave you falling
but the moment never come
but ...
' if that moment never come '
MAKE IT COME !!! *fight* \(^3^)/
this is not another delusional we had, just like make your dreams come true through the hard way of course.
for everyone who supported me always, give the laughs last saturday nite, talked so messy 'bout economy, politic, gossip, those JAV idols, a big fat delusional our future husband (I beg for hiroshi tamaki) *kicked* and why said something the porn films dedicated for guys, unfair we thought XD
and yup, I bought those books for you subconsciously, since there's no interest w/ anything bout shakspeare >_<

addicted with のだめカンタービレpart.2

2008-01-29T12:47:00.000+07:00

part .1 before
with BM : DBSK - Purple Line

and here the のだめカンタービレ files I collected (_ _;)

Manga Scans
Vol 1 -15

OST :
• Nodame Cantabile - Onara Taisou
• Nodame Cantabile Anime Original Soundtrack
• Nodame Cantabile Best 100 Disc 1 - Disc 8
• Nodame Cantabile OP Single - Allegro Catabile (SUEMITSU & THE SUEMITH)
• Nodame Cantabile ED Single - Konna ni Chikaku de... (Crystal Kay)
• Nodame Cantabile ED2 Single - Sagittarius (SUEMITSU & THE SUEMITH)
• Nodame Cantabile Special Best CD1 & CD2
• Nodame Cantabile La Folle Journee Selection
• Nodame Cantabile Mongoose Box
• Nodame Cantabile Orchestra de Nodame Story

LIVE :
• Nodame Cantabile Shinshun Special in Europe1
• Nodame Cantabile Shinshun Special in Europe2
** I got the softsubs for these SP from this forum (^^)

and last friday I just know Nodame Nitendo Dual Screen (NDS) file, used NO$GBA emulator and played it after =) but, but *arrgghhhh*
and still downloading the anime from episode 1 'til 13 x__X

"you don't understand, I'm so in Love with you"

ps. lirik tersebut ditujukan tuk laki-laki diatas ini *LOL*
semaleman gada kerjaan hasilnya coret2an ga jelas kya' gini *mukyaaaa~* (=^_^=)m

L hath no fury

2008-01-10T11:06:00.000+07:00

I don't understand
why you want to punish me
I don't understand
and you are such a beautiful woman

Don't you ever think about the day
you are gonna stand in the judgement before God
What are you gonna say to Him
when He opens the book of life and reads your sins

and bette answered;

" I will say
I am Your creation
and I am proud "
-----------------------------------

Where's benjamin
He's with his wife and kids
You shouldn't have let him go
if he's the man you wana be with
then you should be with him
whatever the cost

like you did wth mom
I did what I had to do
to ensure my happiness
sometimes it comes at a price

---------------------------------

ok, that L word season 3 or 4 now get me bored, don't punish me with season 5 later T_T

the SECRET

2007-12-27T14:05:00.000+07:00

(write other letter under my LiveJournal)

I'm not finished read for this book, I bought it after so long time heard from people if it's worthed to buy, yeah the hardcover which I like and the quality of the paper inside of course, but maybe you should watch THE SECRET movie first, second you exploring this book (^^)v
let shared some of view, the SECRET for the RELATIONSHIP

You can completely transform any relationship, no matter what it's like right now.

Every single relationship you have is a reflection of how you feel inside about you. You are a magnet attracting to you all things, via the signal you are emitting through your thoughts and feelings. Every relationship you have and every interaction with every person, is a reflection of your own thoughts and feelings in that very moment.

To transform every single relationship you have in your life :

• Fall in love with YOU!
• Make lists of hundreds and hundreds of wonderful things about you. Keep adding to it every day.
• Know that you are perfect. Do not think any negative thoughts about you.
• Know that you are worthy and deserving of anything and everything you could possibly want in your life.
• Focus on the wonderful things in every person. Look for only those things.
• Do not blame or criticize anybody, ever.
• Set an intention that you are going to see the best in everything and everyone.
• Make your happiness the number one thing in your life. Happiness is an inside job.
• Free yourself of the responsibility of trying to make other people happy. Respect and love them enough to allow them to take care of their own happiness.
• Get your attention off those things in others that don't make you feel good.
• Appreciate and love yourself in every moment you can.
• Do not expect others to behave in a way you want, so you will be happy. Release yourself forevermore and know that you alone control your happiness and it is a choice, no matter what anyone else is doing.
• Love and respect yourself completely.
• Know that you are perfect right now.

mine sun flower to you

2007-12-13T17:14:00.000+07:00

today I checked out my FaceBook
full of notifications
FaceBook is 'so mussy' for me and sometimes I think it similar like a trash can XD
someone has sent a growth gift for me *danke sis*

and then ...

I sending you my choice
a sun flower to make your life more brighter now
*grew fast*

hey ...
look over out the glass door
*on the lurk* the rain finally come

for her
at the moment, my life is still focus on depressing and daunting relationship. Try to be more assertive toward my problem!!

for him
he should not offer to the others something beyond his capabilities, or else he may get trouble in the future >_<

( here are the other shout I write today)

scatter fast on the ground

2007-12-07T15:03:00.000+07:00

suddenly appear with no realize about memories which should be erased permanently

a few years ago ...

do you remember that
you'll bring me a those BLACK roses even only a single helve
I remember that morning
the BLOOD you spilled for me not a fake like you sometimes did
I know too
you like to write for those two strange things DEATH and BLOOD

a few months ago ...

still same as before your fragrance for some reason seems dear; the smell of cigarette
the way you treated me
your every kindness together with warm and pleasant feeling
those tightly hugged and softly kissed
we are sinner

but asking to YOU for all of YOUR lowliness
I think... maybe... we can not meet each other again at this middle of month like my dream said
'til this noon
dunno...
I hope so

for animal rights

2007-12-04T16:28:00.000+07:00

I simply RE-POSTING this topic to spread
"an apathy for animal right"

make easy, I tried to translated into Indonesian language *fiuh* (I'm weak, really so weak no-good to be a translater) -__-
original posted from this beautiful girl *ehem* sar benett with the title "apathywilliams for animal rights. KAOS GRATISSSSSS!"
unlucky, I want that t-shirt too T_T

ABOUT
sebagian diantara kamu pasti tau (atau mungkin ngga' yah?!) dibeberapa tempat dibelahan dunia seperti Korea dan Cina, binatang2 seperti kucing dan anjing dibunuh dan dimakan sehari hari sejak tahun lalu. 2 juta anjing yang dibunuh di negara Korea ini cuma untuk dikonsumsi orang2 disana. 'pembantaian2 itu terjadi di pasar-pasar yang menjual anjing dan kucing, industri ilegal yang tumbuh subur di kedua negara ini -> Korea & Cina.

mungkin kamu nanya balik, ada yang salah dari pengkonsumsian anjing dan kucing2 ini, padahal berjuta-juta sapi dan ayam itu dimakan setiap hari oleh semua orang diseluruh dunia?? hehe

CRUELTY
hewan2 tersebut (anjing & kucing) sebagaimana binatang lainnya seperti babi dan kelinci di pasar-pasar tersebut diperlakukan dengan amat sangat kejam seperti dikuliti dan direbus hidup-hidup, dipukul dan electrocuted (membunuh dengan listrik) sampai mati, disimpan dikandang dalam jangka waktu yang lama tanpa makanan dan minuman, dan juga dengan cara digantung >_< *I'm begin to sick*

di kebudayaan Korea pernah dikatakan adanya kepercayaan bahwa semakin binatang2 itu mengalami penderitaan, semakin pula daging mereka bernilai tinggi - hormon yang muncul melalui anjing yang disiksa kabarnya sih untuk menambah stamina dan kejantanan pria (BULLSHIT because eating a dog will NOT make your penis grow, SORRY2SAY)
daging dari hewan2 tersebut digunakan juga tuk pembuatan obat2an sebagaimana tuk membuat "dog wine" <- ada yg bisa bantu tuk kata ini, sejenis obat2an kah?!

meskipun ada beberapa isu yg kita dengar tentang rumah2 jagal layaknya diAmerika, harus camkan ini dipikiran kamu ga boleh satupun makhluk hidup yang harus mati seperti ini. terlalu kejam!!!
masalahnya disini bukan hanya menitikberatkan pada kedua negara tersebut. tapi untuk menyebarkan kesadaran tentang bagaimana memperlakukan binatang2 itu sebelum mereka dibunuh.

THERE IS ALSO FORMS OF ANIMAL CRUELTY IN INDONESIA!
Meskipun mengkonsumsi binatang anjing bukanlah suatu kebiasaan disini, tapi masih ada beberapa pasar yang menjual binatang2 tersebut, menyimpan mereka dalam kondisi yang sangat menyedihkan tanpa menyediakan makanan dan minuman.

Coba deh kamu pergi ke Menteng atau Kelapa Gading, kamu akan lihat banyak pedagang dipinggir jalan yang menjual anak2 anjing yang dimasukin ke kandang yang kecil banget tanapa makanan dan minuman bahkan banyak yang sakit dan akhirnya meninggal.. nih yah walaupun kamu lihat binatang2 itu dan kamu ngerasa kasihan. PLEASE DON'T BUY THEM.
Walaupun loe kasian, walaupun kliatan lucu, kl loe beli anjing atau kucing dr samping jalan seller ini bakal nge-profit... yang mana berarti mereka akan banyak lagi menjual binatang2 tersebut, dan banyak juga yang akan meninggal. Kalau ga ada yang beli otomatis mereka ga laku kan'?! emang sedih sih tapi kenyataannya seperti itu.

Ok, I'm finished to translate into bad language XD
here the rest and the message of course from the writer (Sar)

THINKING OF GETTING A CAT/DOG?
If you're thinking about buying a cat/dog, you should try not to buy them from pet stores, as the conditions of these places often vary.
Instead, try looking for breeders around Indonesia that are privately owned and have a good reputation. If you want an extensive list of breeders in Indonesia, please message me and I will send it to you.

HELP THIS CAUSE
coba kesitus ini and tandatanganin petisi online :
http://www.koreananimals.org
http://itstheirdestiny.2kat.net/intropage.html
cetak brosur dan yang paling gampang RE-POSTING aja hehehe dengan liat postingan yang aslinya disini

btw busway
do I've the chance into that lucky 5, getting a that free apathywilliams t-shirt haha
oh yah for sending message to her you can contact at her Myspace, just make sure you've account at Myspace of course lah ^^

unintended

2007-11-28T15:30:00.000+07:00

do you know?

sehari sebelum kemarin
walaupun waktu kita terbatas
walaupun jawaban jawaban itu begitu singkat
walaupun pertanyaan pertanyaan belum semuanya terlontarkan
walaupun kamu selalu saja berkata 'maaf yah'

if you know, my heart beat so fast more and more
'berdebar lebih kencang seperti genderang ketika perang'
even the distance with limited time

. . . . . . . . . .

*fiuh* baru ngerjain 50% buat cross stitch edisi Bali ini, beneran Bali yah ?!
ga bingung sih, cuma setelah selesai mau diapaain yah?! begitu juga dengan yang sudah2 -_-
beberapa gue taro disini -> (my handworks)

additional info too :
subject : EVENT
IKJ METAL FESTIVAL
1 Desember 2007
Viki Sianipar Hall Manggarai

Bands line up :
Siksa Kubur, Thrashline, Death Vertical, Oracle, Deathflame, Melody Maker, Mati Rasa, etc...

*ngajak oba* kesana yuk, masa gue sendirian (accept invitation from andre SK) T_T
lagian juga kan klo elo kesana ada yang lu 'liat' hahahax

Nymphetamine (Fix)

2007-11-24T18:00:00.000+07:00

hwaaaaahhh ga nyadar kalo di hape gue masih ada nih lagu belum diapus2 dari kapan tau -_-
the lyrics goes below :

(Liv)
Lead to the river
Midsummer, I waved
A 'V' of black swans
On with hope to the grave
All through Red September
With skies fire-paved
I begged you appear
Like a thorn for the holy ones

(Dani)
Cold was my soul
Untold was the pain
I faced when you left me
A rose in the rain
So I swore to thy razor
That never, enchained
Would your dark nails of faith
Be pushed through my veins again

(Liv)
Bared on your tomb
I am a prayer for your loneliness
And would you ever soon
Come above unto me?
For once upon a time
From the binds of your lowliness
I could always find
The right slot for your sacred key

(Dani)
Six feet deep is the incision
In my heart, that barless prison
Discolours all with tunnel vision
Sunsetter
Nymphetamine
Sick and weak from my condition
This lust, a vampyric addiction
To her alone in full submission
None better
Nymphetamine

Nymphetamine, nymphetamine
Nymphetamine girl
Nymphetamine, nymphetamine
My nymphetamine girl

Wracked with your charm
I am circled like prey
Back in the forest
Where whispers persuade
More sugar trails
More white lady laid
Than pillars of salt
(Keeping Sodom at night at bay)

(Liv)
Fold to my arms
Hold their mesmeric sway
And dance out to the moon
As we did in those golden days

(Dani)
Christening stars
I remember the way
We were needle and spoon
Mislaid in the burning hay

(Liv)
Bared on your tomb
I am a prayer for your loneliness
And would you ever soon
Come above unto me?
For once upon a time
From the binds of your holiness
I could always find
The right slot for your sacred key

(Dani)
Six feet deep is the incision
In my heart, that barless prison
Discolours all with tunnel vision
Sunsetter
Nymphetamine
Sick and weak from my condition
This lust, a vampyric addiction
To her alone in full submission
None better
Nymphetamine

Sunsetter
Nymphetamine
None better
Nymphetamine

Nymphetamine, nymphetamine
Nymphetamine girl
Nymphetamine, nymphetamine
My nymphetamine girl

but what the meaning of Nymphetamine word here?

based on wikipedia answered:
Nymphetamine is the sixth studio album by Cradle of Filth, released on September 28, 2004.
The title is a portmanteau of "nymphomaniac" and "amphetamine", and Dani Filth explained the track itself as referring to "a drug-like addiction to the woman in question, with her insidious vampyre qualities literally bringing her lover back from the brink of the spiritual grave, only to bury him further on the strength of a whim.

I'm not a big fans of this band hahaha
believe or not ini satu2nya lagu Cradle of filth yang gue suka n bener2 bisa'didenger' coz there is guest appearances from
Liv Kristine ex Theatre of Tragedy n now she's current at Leaves' Eyes vocalist and you know what my bluetooth device name I gave 'Leaves' Eyes' *laughing* that wasn't because of 'you' dear *grins*
lha kok gambarnya cover cd mereka yang into your light =p
official Cradle of Filth and official Leaves' Eyes with official Liv Kristine too one of my fave female vocalist on metal industries beside Tarja Turunen, but why oh why? I mean I can say they're better as vocalist on group than their solo carrier XD

Direngrey new release !!

2007-11-20T14:42:00.000+07:00

second posted at the same day.
my friend at Semarang branch office will getting married on December early *what a surprised*
what I can give you dear?! how if one of my wedding edition cross stitch which I've finished a few month ago.
I'll bet you will LOVE my work ^^

and I'm still stuck on this song *ga nyambung*
I forget what the meaning of 個 'ko' word here, is it for the time like 24hrs???
but I used some several words take from this lyric at my blog's menu, can you see that?! even now I like D'Ray more but the biggest influence for me based on Diru's lyrics, ok not Diru but Kyo his self. Can I Love you? *smug*

24個シリンダ [ 24 Cylinder ]

" An end begins a trivial matter.
It's a time to burn everything.
If I could forget you without hesitation...

Serious injury laughs at me.
The time is changing, the passage of time
burns me, you, now.

Solitude laughs as it likes.
You laugh as you look down.
The time is over, the time will stop, at the end of
the time, sleeping with a kiss to unheated death. "

Direngrey will release 2 re-mastering album on December 19th, 2007
the detail tracks below get from their Official site :

DECADE 1998-2002
【完全生産限定盤】 SFCD-0053～54
￥3,150 (tax in)

【収録曲】 DISC-I
1.アクロの丘
2.Cage
3.Schweinの椅子
4.予感
5.304号室、白死の桜
6.Deity
7.羅刹国
8.audrey
9.脈
10.理由
11.JEALOUS-reverse-

DISC-II
12.ain't afraid to die
13.FILTH
14.Bottom of the death valley
15.逆上堪能ケロイドミルク
16.鬼眼-kigan-
17.embryo（Single version）
18.蟲-mushi-
19.Mr.NEWSMAN
20.umbrella
21.CHILD PREY

DECADE 2003-2007
【完全生産限定盤】 SFCD-0055
￥3,150 (tax in)

【収録曲】
1.OBSCURE
2.かすみ
3.THE IIID EMPIRE
4.DRAIN AWAY
5.砂上の唄
6.audience KILLER LOOP
7.朔-saku-
8.dead tree
9.Merciless Cult
10.鼓動
11.C
12.THE FINAL
13.CLEVER SLEAZOID
14.GRIEF
15.AGITATED SCREAMS OF MAGGOTS
16.凌辱の雨
17.REPETITION OF HATRED
18.CONCEIVED SORROW

well *shrug* should saving money again to buying this item, pick the DECADE 1998-2002.
I want to know *curios* the new mastering of those songs since I missed the old song from Diru. Imagine how could be those old songs with Kyo's voice now without his screaming of course *pray not SOLD OUT very soon* XD

another postingan ga meaning

2007-11-20T12:34:00.000+07:00

why people so easy to posted their conversation in their blog?
kalo seizin silawan bicara mungkin a no big deal, tapi kalau sebaliknya?!
ga ada patokan yang baku, jadi ingat kejadian beberapa tahun lalu when I posted something at my multiply. Ga secara langsung gue posting tentang isi pembicaraan itu, cuma waktu itu lagi ngebahas sesuatu and and the last of our conversation between me and her I put only 5% on that posting and that wasn't a secret because you tell us (us word), but guess what!! someone, my friend and her too maybe telling her about that posted. at the night I received the sms from her, She was boil over me and told me to delete that posted.

I dont want discuss this again, the summary I can tell is, after that we stop to talking each other when we meet, 'til someday I really really get sick with this condition and I dare to asking to her, apologize too of course.
the big surprise is she said to me if I've another mistake than that... ok misunderstanding.
you're really oversensitive now and kinda of drama queen which I really confuse what to do with you.
until today, We can't be like was again right, there are a wall separate, feel no comfort again when talk to you like you've your own world with those of two and me with my own too or this is only my selfishness. please keep it sis, I still respect on you.

"and don't put this conversation again at online diary" she said
-> SHUT UP!!!

like an -insect-

2007-11-16T11:46:00.000+07:00

mood :
music : Direngrey - audrey
=========================

november 14th 21:36 I got sms from stranger person like this below ;

# Asz. Eh yank LUNA G Apa skrng'
+ Sypa yah?! Gyaaaaaa stalker... Lg ngeliat kjendela n brbsk kpd angin *DEWA banget sih* dgn sbuah harapan & doa tuk seseorang wakakak

# Im secret admier your.LUNA
+ sEnYuM k'Ortu:
taNda sAyaNg

sEnYuM k'Adik:
tNda kAsih

sEnYum k'pAcar:
tNda ciNta

sEnYuM k'aQ?
tNda ngeFANS...

mSh sEnyuM jg?
NgeFANS bgt yA mA aQ..

#Tp aku sayang km
+ Lama2 prcakapan ini tambah jayuz
Mamang tukang bakyo yah
------------------------------
# stranger
+ me

kyanya gue tau deh siapa yg iseng kya' gini, ini pasti salah satu ank DD *menaruh curiga* mmmhhh...
nomernya +6281720631 <- ada yang tau nomer ini? not a what to do list, buat What I did *what kind of* since no new post at this blog.. yup, but.. •• finally I get my D'espairsray DVD Spiral Staircase #15 last sunday, walaupun dari pihak BrandX sempat salah kirim, kok LIQUIDIZE lagi yg dikirim, gue kan dah punya -_-

•• baru nyelesaiin ato finishing-touch with the latest handwork I posted HERE ^^

•• recently dunno I have a good appetite which I think why I'm so greedy (>_<) i.e gue makan 1 porsi pecel ayam dengan nasi yang sebelum-sebelum nya gue makan cuma 1/2 porsinya aja, dilanjut setelah itu lu makan cake pemberian temen yg abis ultah, and then with clossing dish with chips and chocholate, biasanya kegiatan ini dilakukan pas malam hari while I did my handworks. just thinking if people at particular stress time *unbearable life in distress* they tend lose appetite, no.. I'm in healing =) •• this morning my coworker gave me one box of apple pie hahaha what a lucky day •• got sms from my XL provider "Dapatkan HP SE K800i jika aktifkan lagu baru NIDJI - Biarlah sebagai XL RBT" hahaha guess what?! I would XD •• I've planning to change the layout again>> add BloggerPreviousItems, BloggerArchives, comment script. Hey I found so many cute icons file but those ico wasn't good as the display when I tried to used *grins*

•• full of thinking what should I ask for Hydevilist's 10 questions project

•• this morning was dreaming again bout him before I wake to pray, but after I sleep again, that dream continuing with the same object 'him'. Is it the answer from God for what I asked, like a sign or DEG's fans called 予感 if we can meet each other again, am I too patethic

tomorrow I should take a rest lah, but my friend asked me to help him for his college works and to comfort him, bro I lend you my shoulder, how :p

but rain can't completely removed his steps

2007-11-05T10:34:00.000+07:00

mood :
music : L'Arc-en-Ciel - fate
=========================

sebuah renungan, after read his Heartless' blog (from badagwae reviews)
I'm just asking, but why you started to making an argument xp

..........

Bagaimana aku, kamu, atau seseorang akan berkata

" SELAMAT TINGGAL "
.... kepada seseorang yang tidak pernah aku miliki ???
Kenapa tetes air mata jatuh demi seseorang yang tidak pernah menjadi kepunyaanku ???
Kenapa aku merindukan seseorang yang tidak pernah bersamaku ???
dan kubertanya, Kenapa aku mencintai seseorang yang cintanya tidak pernah untukku ???

Jika kamu mencintai seseorang, jangan berharap bahwa seseorang itu akan mencintai kamu persis sebaliknya dalam kapasitas yang sama

Ketika kamu mencintai, jangan mengharapkan apapun sebagai imbalan
karena jika kamu demikian, kamu bukan mencintai
melainkan ..... investasi
Jika kamu mencintai, kamu harus siap untuk menerima penderitaan
Karena jika kamu mengharap kebahagiaan,kamu bukan mencintai
.... melainkan memanfaatkan

I'm sick bcoz of what ?!

2007-11-03T18:06:00.000+07:00

mood :
music : [remioromen - 3/9 with Quartet, RATU - semakin hari semakin cinta, Gita Gutawa - Kembang Perawan, Girugamesh - Glamorous Sky, MUSE - sing for absolution, Andra & the Backbone - sempurna, DJ OZMA - let me dance, DBSK - rising sun, DEWA19 - Flower in The Desert]

file uploaded by someone LJ
join files with HJSplit
finished download at October 29th with several times re-download 'cause the transfered sometimes failed (>_<) with quality DShow (AVI): Video: 640x352 Audio: 48khz 16bps Stereo (0:55:32) 1456kbps 29.97fps
yup today spending time for the result of this 578 MB file
Asian Song Festival October 3rd, 2007

with the opening like this: Korea, China, Hongkong, Indonesia, Japan, Philippines, Taiwan, Tai, Vietnam WE ARE ASIA

based on my eyes watched this festival, there are the artists:

- Lee Hyoo Lee <- sexy diva apanya
- Golf & Mike
- Lam Truong
- Barbie Almalbiz

- super junior -> or my frens called suju, ok ok I like that violinist, Henry =p
Indonesian Super Junior fans site "Sujunesia"

- Vannes Wu (F4)
- A-mei
- Gigi Leung

- Kuraki Mai -> she brought Secret to my heart, is it the soundtrack for meitantei Conan?!

- Vicky Zhou
- DBSK -> Japanese fans called the tohoshinki, brought Rising Sun *fiuh* atleast I knew this song and have watched the video before. I'm not their huge fans but hey who's that man?! kok sepertinya mirip Jerry Yan yah :lol:
oh itu yg namanya ChangMing, gue kan ga apal tampang anak2 DBSK -__-

I want to complain hehe (udah untung dia upload-in)
from the beginning 'til end *wait* where's Peterpan here, kok gada?!
F4nya juga ga ada, terus apa tuh kata elo "FT Island from Korea" juga ga ada tuh. Ini mah bukan full version, yah iyalah cuma 55 menit 32 detik kok full version.
*stare to oma* coba yah, gue menyetujui tuk download-in ini 'cause I want to see Peterpan performance at this festival. Setidaknya satu bukti tuk mensupport produk Indonesia *ngawur & ga nyambung* XD
anda.. anda.. yah kamu *nunjuk* mungkin da yg punya rekamannya *penting yah* hahaha

just remind to you all, at the weather change like these recently, please take care of your healthy.
Sometimes we not realized if we work or doing something too hard 'til you find your body suddenly become sick and you should go to doctor of course.
like two days ago I get sick headache (vomit several times), a fever with laryngitis, ok what made me distress not because of the sickness but when Doctor said, no but write for his resume; "your age 23, Ms. or Mrs?!" wakakak

ok where art thou now dear?!
if rain really completely removed his steps

same posted but with pics I upload HERE

grand launching Sobat-Gen

2007-10-29T11:34:00.000+07:00

Grand Launching-nya stasiun radio baru 98.7 genfm (motonya-> suara musik terkini) yang diadain di Cilandak Town Square tanggal 27 Oktober Sabtu kemarin.
Acaranya seru, Rame abizz, penuh sesak panas gila.
In the middle of crowded *butuh udara* kalo ga terbiasa mungkin bisa collapse (udah ada korbannya soalnya).

dengan tinggi badan gue cuma 160cm kurang, yang ada cuma liat lautan kepala manusia, mau keatas juga udah penuh x_x
sebenarnya sih bisa menerobos kedepan panggung *semangat fanatik2 yg berlebihan*, cuma buat apa?!!!
buat liat GIGI doank sambil nyanyi bareng 11 Januarinya itu hahaha ga banget deh, I'm not their huge fans
kangen juga sama suasana kya' gitu. mmmhhh maybe i'll doing that on next 25 November event when Onizuka onstage *stare to those 4 people* let's headbangin' together again (>_<)

pas lagi muter-muter ga jelas gitu terdengar lagu "Kekasih Gelapku", tapi bukan the Pasha yang nyayi melainkan *pake cara bicara gue* the Phasto hehehe maksudnya Pasto, jadi ini toh yg namannya Pasto yg lagunya diputer2 ulang ga mudeng pas gue denger genFM -__-

the Bands performance :
Kunci, Cassanova, Cindy Bernadette, Ecoutez, D'Must Akira, Pasto and GIGI

this is my Sobat-Gen card, ga jelas deh buat apa nih kartu, but I like it's green n the logo too, ga sempet poto bareng ma maskotnya XD

عيد مبارك

2007-10-20T15:27:00.000+07:00

is it kinda late to say 'Eid Mubarak' to you all?!
the answer is no, right?!

I posted these lyrics setelah nonton Open House Republik Mimpi seminggu yang lalu.
iya, iya gue baru online
siapa suruh fastNet belum meng-cover wilayah rumah gue
siapa suruh juga gue tinggal didaerah Tanjung Barat tapi bukan perumahan ber-Complex ato ujung2nya pake embel2 Estate :p
waiting list, itu kata CSnya FirstMedia, setelah isi formulir online -_-

HARI LEBARAN
by. Ismail Marzuki

Setelah berpuasa satu bulan lamanya
Berzakat fitrah menurut perintah agama
Kini kita ber-idulfitri berbahagia
Mari kita berlebaran bersuka gembira
Berjabatan tangan sambil bermaaf-maafan
Hilang dendam habis marah di hari lebaran
Minal aidin wal faizin, maafkan lahir dan batin
Selamat para pemimpin, rakyatnya makmur terjamin

Dari segala penjuru mengalir ke kota
Rakyat desa berpakaian baru serba indah
Setahun sekali naik trem listrik free
Ngilir mudik jalan kaki pincang sampai sore
Akibatnya tengteng selop, sepatu, terompe, kakinya pada lecet babak belur berabe
Maafkan lahir dan batin, lain taun hidup prihatin
Cari wang jangan bingungin, ‘lan Syawal kita ngawinin

Cara orang kota berlebaran lain lagi
Kesempatan ini dipake buat berjudi
Sehari semalam main ceki mabuk brandi, pulang sempoyongan kalah main pukul isteri
Akibatnya sang ketupat melayang ke mate, si penjudi mateng biru dirangsang si isteri
Maafkan lahir dan batin, lain taun hidup prihatin
Kondangan boleh kurangin, korupsi jangan kerjain.

"I would like to wish you an Eid Mubarak 1428 Hijriyah"
May Allah bless it for you also! (^^)

the revenant choir

2007-10-08T13:44:00.000+07:00

Versailles - The Revenant Choir

I'm proud of them
Pleasure like fear
It's a night when the moon laughs at lover
The time has came for you
I will resurge and shouts and bites
Stay away!
do you want to go with me?

They called it...
"The red carpet day"
The floor covered by delicious looking roses
The time has came for me
I will resurge. no control!
Poured crimson admiration into...

Our clan's blood will not stop forever
If you wish, I would become a rose
Our clan's blood is a lifetime lover
stay, choir of sorrow and pains

My dearest descendant, Please stab my belly
oh so again
Please stab my heart
The time has came for me
I will resurge. no control!
Poured crimson admiration into Holy Grail

Our clan's blood will not stop forever
If you wish, I would become a rose
Our clan's blood is a lifetime lover
stay,choir of sorrow and pains

記憶の中の紅い血を薔薇に変えていた
響く Her shout and Choir

Our clan's blood will not stop forever
If you wish, I would become a rose
Our clan's blood is a lifetime lover
stay, choir of sorrow and pains

記憶の中の紅い血を薔薇に変えていた
響く Her shout and Choir

The time has came for us
long time sleep passed
The world turns in hand of descendant of the rose
Our clan's blood will not stop forever
stay,choir of sorrow and pains
Our clan's blood is a lifetime lover
Without you, would be gone Far away...

credit : eimii at Bonjour Honey forum

all you can feel lha

2007-10-05T11:29:00.000+07:00

kemarin sore ceritanya buka puasa bareng sama beberapa teman kantor yang notabene 4 orang laki-laki plus ceweknya gue sendiri x_x
so, lets check where the place now we choose. Looking for the Cheap price but with Cozy place, alhasil temanku yg brnama Fiko ini udah dari kemaren emang ngajak makan di D'cost Kemang
<-ajak makan bukan berarti mentraktir makan, krna yg ditraktir dia cuma es teh manis yang notabene cuma seharaga Rp. 500, ok jadi inilah yg dinamakan all you can drink 'teh manis sepuasnya' -_-

jadiiii... kita cuma menghabiskan Rp. 124rb yg udah termasuk pajak yang dibagi tuk 5 orang, tapi knapa pula gue yang bayar lebih >_<

Yang Dipesan :
1 porsi cumi bakar
1 porsi cumi saus padang
1 porsi (isinya 3) lumpia seafood
1 mangkuk sayur asem <- kok manis yah mba' xp
1 porsi udang api goreng kering
1 porsi tumis kangkung
1 porsi cumi goreng tepung
1 porsi udang pacet lada hitam
2 gelas jus alpukat
1 porsi tempe bakar yg isinya cuma 2 biji
2 botol Aqua 2 gelas es lemon tea
5 gelas es teh manis

*kenyang*

sebelumnya . . .

fiko
"kyu, duduk sini, bentar, ada yang mau gue omongin"

diriku
"apaan seh"

fiko
"sebenarnya gue mo ngomong gue suka ma loe lagi"

diriku
"nyaah" *menyepelekan*

fiko
"kalo lu mau sih, tapi mau ga jadi yang keDua"

diriku
*nyah, nyah, nyah*
*ketawa garing*

beginilah klo (anda) mempunyai teman kebanyakan lelaki daripada wanita, tapi ada untungnya juga, dari situ kamu bisa belajar banyak, bertanya juga lebih banyak, tentang kejelekan2 mereka of course with their rottenness too (^3^)/

Happy Birthday to you - warmest greetings

2007-09-25T12:04:00.000+07:00

I wish you ...
small unexpected happinesses
an invitation
a gift
and
a smile from not a stranger
from me

" HAPPY BIRTHDAY "
to you

and here the gift I can give with the formula
¤ a design size 16 x 16 cm
¤ a gif format of that picture you've sent
¤ an unknown cross stitch unlicensed software
¤ an adobe photoshop vr.7.0 w/no skill
¤ an Aida DMC fabric - white 14 ct
¤ 9 different colors of thread
¤ 4 days worked after office hours
¤ not forget the Rice - trial 0406 album I listened

the result with no frame
>> a gift <<

sunny side up

2007-09-24T14:15:00.001+07:00

kejadian tadi malam, sehabis bubar bareng diBP.
-- senangnya bisa ketemu siDarkie n her sister too, Nie and Shianti *peluk2*--

pas jalan melewati salah satu restaurant dekat escalator, posisi berbaris nih, gue paling belakang.. tau tau kok
*argggggggghhhh*
*gemes, gemes*
*pengen cubit*
tapi ga berdaya
someone touched my butt *shame really*

why me?!
padahal begitu banyak wanita2 (temen2 gue)
kenapa bocah kecil nan lucu dan menggemaskan itu malah 'memegang' ku bukan wiwid aja yang ukurannya lebih luas en lebih empuk tentunya buat dilecehkan :p
tak mungkinkan klo sex appeal gue cuma menarik bocah berumur 2-3 taonan <- ajenk, kamu kok tambah ngaco yah, udah mana nyokap bokapnya senyum2 malu juga lagi T_T

before ...

listening RICE again, their latest album titled "Trial 0406" released last January 31st *longing so much*. lilbit remind of Raphael sound (ya iyalah, wong pionernya mereka ber2) but it more classically influence, bukannya Raphael juga begitu?! :p
if my ears not deaf catch those sounds, every single songs on that album has cello or violin sounds except sokrates song, since i'm not musician, but I'm sure that is cello (>_<)
and of course with Yuki's voice, is that kind of Angelic voice?! people.. kadang terlalu melebih-lebihkan (-_-;)

the tracks :
01. 辻 (tsuji)
02. 樹々(kigi)
03. 勿忘草 (wasurenagusa)
04. One Box
05. こころ音 (kokoro ne)
06. くちびる (kuchibiru)
07. Sunny Side Up -> my fave (^^)
08. ソクラテス (sokrates)
09. Square
10. 夢追人 (mutsuijin)
11. Air

second is Kirito album - NEGATIVE
ok, I just think hey Kirito what the differences with your Pierrot before or now the Angelo XD
why GARDEN sounding (only for the intro) Umbrela-ish xp
and then still I like farewell song from Apocalyptica =)

ゆらめき

2007-09-05T12:24:00.000+07:00

絡み合わない愛情修復不可能な君
もう戻れないんだね決して忘れられない過去
3年間の思い出が掌を返したように
今ではあの街君の顔すら思い出したくないよ辛すぎるから
でも3年間の思い出を大切にし、いつでも君を待っているから
有りえない願いを僕は祈っているよ
有りえないと分かっていても僕は君を待っている
これからもずっと

― 弱すぎる僕から傷つきすぎた君へ ―

LOVE that isn't entangle you, impossible to repair
it's too late to go back I will never let the past be forgotten
three years memories, seemingly turning 'bout face on me
as far now, that town even your face I don't want to recall 'cause it's too painful
but three years of memories mean too much because always I'm waiting for you
an impossible dream, I am praying
I know that it's not possible, yet even still I am waiting for you
from here on, always

- from me too weak, to you too wounded -

unbearable life in distress

2007-08-30T20:01:00.001+07:00

this endlessly whirling memory hurts terribly at times
all I do is chasing your shadow
in people who look a bit similar

left behind and lonely,
I'm waiting for coincidence at the place where we came together
how foolish...

Nothing
yes, I'm useless, what could I heal with my broken wings
Nothing
my heart gets stolen by passers-by who have the same gestures as you
LOVE YOU
the two of us laughing on a warm day are not here anymore

this song of Deadman, with original title 'kunou no naka no taegatai sonzai' same as me now
the rest half lyrics is yours
translation credit goes to gisshokitty the owner of Heaven's Door

kekasih gelapku - ungu

2007-08-24T20:05:00.000+07:00

part two, before I wrote at my blogdrive
if you know this song ^^

" love you more than anything
though nobody being the wiser
love you from the bottom of my heart
even so you just only my secret valentine

as I am sure you're my affection
which I look for along my life
at only to you I give the rest of my love
constantly in my whole life "

noooooo...
kata-kata diatas itu versi gue translate ke bahasa planet laen
yang dibawah ini versi aslinya :p

" ku mencintaimu lebih dari apapun
meskipun tiada satu orang pun yg tahu
ku mencintaimu sedalam-dalam hatiku
meskipun engkau hanya kekasih gelapku

yakinlah bahwa engkau adalah cintaku
yg kucari slama ini dalam hidupku
dan hanya padamu kuberikan sisa cintaku
yg panjang dalam hidupku "

yes, this song i heard so many times recently
what the message I get from the lyrics?! *garuk-garuk*

a scandalist
perselingkuhan
forbidden lover
perkataan orang banyak yg bilang
'CINTA ga harus memiliki'
so untuk apa mencintai klo ga bisa dimiliki, cuma bikin makan hati >_<

another GOD plans you said
atau Tuhan sedang mempermainkan kita

you held the last piece of this puzzle and you don't know what will you do for it
so give it to me, I'll put that last piece into that left space

I take this from your blog:
and for the darkest nights you rest, I pray for a brighter day too for you

bless the child

2007-08-20T14:03:00.001+07:00

" Talitha Jasmine Alifyah "

how a lovely name for your daughter ^^
to you, you and you *yes I point toward at you all*

if you have baby someday
what's the perfect name will you give for your children?!

met ultah

2007-08-18T12:53:00.000+07:00

a funny short message yesterday:

"Merdeka qiuw... ultah lo dirayakan oleh 220jt rakyat indonesia. selamat ye, smg cepat daped kecengannya. jgn ngeceng mlulu ki. huehehehe. senin traktir gw. awas klo ngga" -fiko

thanks for all friends;
withu, adityo, happy, aiko, eugene, setz, ajenk, darkie & ary plus few unknown numbers who sent birthday greeting by sms, my friendster, my space too *huge & kiss* and who call me directly Kenny, so sweet sis ^^ iya betul kata Leo, lu ga ikutan balap karung XP

seems today has another birthday too for Darkie and Nanne, long time no see buat ibu nanne yang satu ini,masih ngurus JRS kah?!

and what I'm doing in this weekend, spend my entire days at home, downloaded for GHpatcher, useless I've keygen but reflexive page cant display >_< ~~read harrypotter 7 scans~~, listening all Nightwish songs, make screen shoot for Spell Magic PV by Acid Black Cherry, a solo project by Yasu, how the another funny PV which make laugh, my eyes tired now in front of the screen
sleep~

best gift

2007-08-16T22:35:00.000+07:00

change the layout again, more suitable for me than before
I LOVE WHITE ~
my friend said 'u get the point'
the image is same as the situation of me recently>_<

tomorrow is my birthday, how old I am?! (getting old kah?!)
what I want?!
nothin'
if I asked, God.. give me the best gift as YOU want, whatever
how 'bout you dear?!
my best gift, maybe... your your words to me

good night and
sleep tight 'til the dawn come

weekend di rumah sakit

2007-08-13T16:35:00.000+07:00

fatmawati- pondok kopi- cipinang indah- bintaro- pasar minggu- cipete

itulah route yg gue lewati sabtu-minggu kemaren, serasa kenek angkot -_-
lebih parahnya lagi, klo diingat2 dalam dua hari itu kerjaan gue cuma numpang tidur dibeberapa tempat temen;
sabtunya diRS t4 gue jenguk n minta maap sama si ibu manajer, sempet2nya tidur dikamar khusus orang sakit itu xp
malem minggunya numpang tidur dit4 oma aka rurtje, buset deh, katanya kerjain script komik, kok jam 12 dah pada molor (>_<) hari minggunya pas anak2 FL melanjutkan ngerjain komik hentainya itu dit4 ajenk

*berfikir* pas jenguk ecchi di RS Islam pondok kopi, thanks anyway yah atas makanannya *ups* kok yang jenguk yg kenyang (dapet pisang molen, soup, sate padang, pizza pula bo', udah deh ga usah disebutin) *blush*
padahal cuma bawain rujak jambu aja (orang sakit kok dikasih rujak xp) mana sempet numpang tidur disana lagi, secara 3tempat tidur dalam satu ruangan semi VIP itu penghuninya sudah pulang semua (tinggallah ecchi sendiri) *jadi betah*

but I was thinking ...

kalau gue sakit, kena DBD ato tipes lah, aga' khawatir krna beberapa temen2 gue kok bs kena berurutan gitu, alhamdulillah gue hobi makan jambu n minum jus jambu *ga penting yah* jadi sampai saat ini belum ada tanda2 walaupun dibelakang kantor banyak nyamuk pas makan siang <- sudah pernah ada korban dulunya, salah satu IT dikantor gue >_<

and thinking again ....

gue mungkin kesepian why?!
ok...
" my family will accompany me every day"
" my friends will visit me when they have unoccupied time, maybe send a bouqet of flowers with their amusing-cute-joke message inside (melihat apa yg anak2 shuri berikan dan sebuah note jayuz turut berduka cita tuk sang manajer hehe)"
" friends who visit you will bring their prayer and smile, n mungkin juga laptop mereka sekedar buat pamer 'hey gue dapet lengkap happy tree friend serial' ato 'mau liat para host2 itu ber naked2 plus ber-shower2 ria lagi ga' *nose bleed for makoto* xp terus gue diajak nonton deh *smug*"
" dan yg pasti ucapan tulus 'semoga cepet keluar dari sini' ^^ "

so, I sit behind that room, where the winds blow so hard
'masa' iyah gue kesepian'
yang pasti jangan tolak kedatangan mereka, it will bring laughs on your face *of course*

but I'll ~~dying~~ living waiting someone
yang berharap dia akan datang, datang ke jakarta, terserah mao naek kapal, kereta api ato bus (gila kali, kelamaan pake bus, ini kan jaman ~~edan~~ serba canggih ^^)
accompany me even only one single day
'cause you are my best medicine for my recovery (jadi inget ost lagu NANA yg my medicine)

and the last asking to that wind

would you come...
*whew* ... *ngarep*

-> buat ecchi, ini poto2nya
silahkan klik di masing2 alamat tersebut
penghuni kamar 1106-1
penghuni kamar 1106-2
penghuni kamar 1106-3
penghuni kamar 1106-4
penghuni kamar 1106-5
penghuni kamar 1106-6

under pressure

2007-08-11T09:21:00.000+07:00

see, we get nothing from our conversation last nite, siapa suruh ngebahas itu lagi, gue ga mulai, tapi situ yg bilang 'would u want to talk'

hey, muka gue keliatan banget yah klo lagi ada masalah, makanya lu mancing2 =) sedangkan posisi duduk ga enak banget, his wife *man* beside me, mau ngambil poto siBanyu hitam itu yg ada disebelah kiri gue kagak jadi2, takut dipelototin sama siPatrice <- benarkah namanya hahaha

like I said before, I'm so sorry, berulang kali bo', ga tau juga knapa lu tiap hari nelpon gue, aga' risih?! jelas lah.. takut ja klo terlalu banyak bicara jadi nyakitin perasaan loe, and see when I told you the truth (only little clue sih) it hurts you right, but the last words from you, you will not hurt me physically but mentality yes, apa artinya?! silly, emang

berbagai masukan akan saya tampung, tapi akhirnya saya jugalah yang akan menentukan akan kemana arah yang saya tuju *jangan pesimis*

oh yah tambahan album Nightwish yang baru yang judulnya Dark Passion, yah go on lah Nightwish dengan vokalis barunya, jadi basi deh -__-

this is me

2007-08-10T13:59:00.000+07:00

some of friends' comments:

"what happened with you"
"kok layoutnya gitu"
"tumben si ibu.."
"another gay blog" <- to cumi; another lame response *I'll hit you* =p

too childish?! <- emangnya selama ini gue da dewasa?! udahlah non, da diatas 20tahun gitu XD the reason to used this layout, I dunno ^^ *uso* terkesan norak yah?! ngga' juga ah <- pembelaan donk bikin nih blog pas lagi carut marutnya perasaan ini kali yah (duh si neng) *lol*

tapi thanks to jessica aka wish for the free layout, I asked ur permission before, see the credit section for the link ^^

to someone beloved there... which only I can read your own written at your darkness blog xp every single human being has dark & bright side, it depends on you. How to make your life become brighter ^^
hey, don't feel as a lonely guy, maybe just a temporary feeling. I never asked you to share with, even I would *really* =)

last our chat, do you really not ignored me, even you reply "am not" :p
I keep your words, moga-moga ini cuma kegalauan sesaat, kegalauan dimana biasanya cuma nurutin perasaan tapi ga diimbangi dengan logika if I just can give more and more for this love, like she said;
"I have found the paradox, that if you love until it hurts, there can be no more hurt, only more love"

I'm not the saint like her *halah, kok jadi ambil quote-nya mother theresa* and then again that love not for two lovers, but maybe ...

maybe I should go to QB book-store now, pengen nonton Oracle and melihat banyu biru, biru ato hitam?! ^^ *tetep*

first entry

2007-08-07T11:15:00.000+07:00

this is my very 1st entry for this blog

I read his journal n ok.. berapa banyak postingan kamu yg sebelumnya belum dibaca
but the latest one is surprised me
a big mark question inside this heart, to whom that letter you wrote
is it me or her

and suddenly I've the headache now -_-